Last night shortly before 1am on the 31st I became aware of an extremely high pitch noise. I was asleep at the time, but the noise brought me to a state of near wakefulness. I imagined that I had a drum set in front of me and I has hammering out a series of complex and rapid sequences of beats to drown out the high pitch noise. The sounds that I made were incredibly realistic and nearly deafening. I then became aware of a tingling sensation in my body that I instantly recognized as the paralysis that usually precedes my abduction experiences. This awareness and the fear associated with it brought me into complete wakefulness. I became aware that I was laid on my back and that my body was completely locked by the paralysis. Through the high pitch whine that I could still hear I could hear something moving about just beyond the door of my bedroom. When I heard these noises something kept telling me that it was okay, that it was just my pet cat moving around upstairs. I immediately dismissed this thought, since I always close my cats downstairs so that they cannot come upstairs, plus the noises that I could hear were the floorboards creaking and neither of my cats are heavy enough to makes such noises. I decided that I wasn't going simply lie in bed and wait for who ever was in my house to come into my room and scare me. I decided to fight the paralysis and get out of bed. At first I rolled myself so that I was facing my bedroom door. I was still completely paralyzed, but I found that if I concentrated all of my effort; that I could move myself. My next move was to turn myself so that my legs would project out over the edge of my bed, so that I could move into a standing position. I concentrated all of my intent and somehow managed to get my legs hanging off of the bed at a steep angle. At this point even though I was extremely heavy I noticed that my movements didn't seem to involve using my muscles, it was more like moving an incredibly heavy boulder with my mind. I decided that this was probably just an effect of the paralysis and that once I was on my feet that the paralysis would probably abate.
Once my legs were hanging over the edge of my bed I tried to rock my body into a vertical position. At this point even though I knew that my legs must have been hanging over thin air, I noticed that they wouldn't bend and therefore must have been sticking out like a couple of wooden sticks.
I decided to use this to my advantage by seesawing my body into a vertical position. With a huge burst of effort I threw my rigid body into a vertical position. I saw myself rise and carry on moving forward, so that my face would soon hit the wall next to my bed. Somehow as I panicked I managed to stop myself so that my body was leaning forward at an impossible gravity-defying angle. I could see the wall in front of me and the little table that sits by my wall just below me.
At this point I heard a weird little animal like grumble. The best way that I can describe this is that if a cat tried to speak English, that this is probably the kind of sound it would make. It was a kind of growly murmur. Suddenly the paralysis began to leave my body and to my dismay I found that I was still laid in bed in the same position that I had initially found myself at the start of the experience.
Within a couple of seconds I heard a car move down my street and it occurred to me that the visitors had left because they knew that the car was coming and they couldn't risk being witnessed doing whatever the hell it was that they were doing.
Shortly afterward I heard my son talking in his sleep and I became worried that he may be having his own weird encounter, so I got out of bed and went to him. I found him asleep and woke him to check that he was okay. He didn't remember talking to anyone, but seemed happy enough so I went back to bed.
Before I got back into bed I looked out of my bedroom window to see if I could see anything unusual. The sky was slightly overcast, but there were no unusual lights. I did notice that the street was completely dead, which is pretty unusual as normally it is pretty busy even at that time of night.
When I lay back in bed I could still feel the edge of the paralysis and I could just detect the high pitch noise on the edge of hearing, so rather than go back to sleep I decided to read for a while until I felt safe enough to sleep. I read for half an hour and slept undisturbed until my kids woke me the next day.
My own thoughts.
I have noticed that most of my encounters start with the same paralysis that I felt last night and this paralysis is always preceded with an unusual high pitch noise. I now think that the noise is either the catalyst of my paralysis, like a hypnotic cue, or that the sound is my brain's interpretation of some kind of process that is happening in my central nervous system during the experience.
When I thought that I was moving my body on my bed I am sure that some element of my perception was in fact moving as my view of my room did seem to change as I moved around. I think that I was having some kind of out of body experience, but part of my perception must have still been tied to my body, because I was constantly aware that even though I was moving myself into different angles, that my body didn't seem to bend and my limbs seemed to remain in their relative positions. The reason my body seemed to stay as stiff as a plank even though my perceptions told me that my legs must have been hanging over my bed was because my legs were still very much in bed, because physically I hadn't moved at all. Luckily I have had an O.B.E before so I do have some experience to draw upon. I know that when my perception moves beyond my body that movement is incredibly easy and that moving forward is easier than lifting a finger. You simply pick a point and then fill. I think that my perception of physical weight was because part of my perception was still on my body and that by trying to move my body I was using a huge amount of will power and the effect to simply move my perception to different positions. I had a very similar encounter to this one over a decade ago. During this encounter a lone visitor entered my room and paralyzed me. he seemed to mess with my paralysis so that I heard different sounds and my perception of my body would change. During that encounter I tried to move my hand in front of my face. Again this took a huge amount of effort, but once it was in front of my face the colors looked wrong and it seemed to have different hazy colors moving on my skin. Oddly once it was in front of my face it didn't take any effort to keep it there, as if it was weightless. As soon as the encounter ended my arm seemed to flick back under my duvet, and I soon realized that my hand hadn't physically moved at all and that what I was seeing was either my spirit's arm or simply an incredibly realistic hallucination.
I am coming to the conclusion that all of my encounters may have been out of body. The weird thing is that even though I was out of body during last nights encounter, I still had a sense of physical sensation, because part of my perception was still tied up in my physical body. I felt heavy and sluggish, but I really was moving around my room as I tried to stand up. The experience felt completely physical as my visual perceptions came from whatever form of me it was that was moving around my bed.
I think that O.B.E type abductions make sense of a lot of mysteries around this subject. It explains why there has never been any physical evidence retrieved during an abduction, it also explains why we seem to be able to fly and move through walls during our abductions and it could also explain why our abduction memories disappear like dream memories.
I think that because part of us remain tied to our bodies that perhaps this is how physical implants are found in the body. perhaps by surgically implanting our spirits that the physical body will manifest a foreign body within itself. This theory falls flat on it's face when I try to make sense of the removal of sperm and ovaries, but hey no-bodies perfect.
These are all just thoughts and my conclusions my change over time.
Happy new year
M. Doolittle.
Howdy all,This is just a very quick update to say that I saw a UFO today, but there is more to it than that.I was sat with my girlfriend in her car in Mcdonalds car park, eating an unhealthy supper. At around 7pm I saw a bright green light crossing the sky. This thing was moving way too fast to be a plane and seemed to be flying pretty low; despite this the thing was totally silent.I try not to talk about my experiences in front of my girlfriend, just because it makes her uncomfortable; so I fought the urge to pull out my camera-phone and film it. At the beginning of our relationship we entered a period when my experiences were getting pretty hard to deny and she found the fact that these things could intrude on us at any time, extremely difficult to deal with; so now I do everything in my power to shield her from this part of my life.I do kinda wish that I had captured the thing so you all could see it, but if it happened again under the same circumstances; I know that I would still resist the urge to film it.I have seen objects that were almost identical to the light that I saw tonight 12 years ago. I have seen these things shooting straight up into the sky like super fast rockets and also zipping across the sky like meteorites, but bigger, brighter, lower and from horizon to horizon. I saw these things during an extremely active period during my abduction experiences, the same period that frightened my girlfriend so badly at the beginning of our relationship.I have recently entered a faze where I believe that I need to enter a period of contact for my own development, this subject has been on my mind constantly since my regression.I think that the visitors are here to initiate a new faze in my contact experiences and that the green light was a kind of confirmation of this. I believe that they knew that I would resist the urge to film them in front of my girlfriend and I also think that they know that my son is sleeping away from home tonight. This is important because I think that they are interested in him and this brings forth some extremely powerful protective instincts in myself that have caused me react very badly to the visitors presence in the past.I am fully expecting to have an abduction experience tonight, but I will not try to film them or expose them in any way. I know that they are coming because I have called them and I actually look forward to seeing them again.I will update if anything happens, even if my memories are mostly hidden.
I am beginning to feel the visitors attention more and more as the 16th approaches.This has happened in the past, during the lead up to a physical encounter.I will catch glimpses of shadowy movements. I will get the feeling that I am being watched and my attention will flick unguided to a point near to me and I will often see a kind of flitting movement, like a person is just ducking out of view. I have also had this with shapes in the sky. I will glimpse rapid movement above me, but as my eyes track it, it quickly fades into the background. I am left with peripheral glimpses of quick streak like instances of movement. a bit like when you barely catch a glimpse of a shooting star, only bigger and lower.I can also feel them watching my thoughts. This is like a feeling of pressure just next to and behind my right eye. I can feel the presence of another mind riding my own. My dreams have been directed toward the visitors also. I feel as if I am having conversations with them in my sleep. I have a long record of personal premonitions, that I have logged since I was about 17. Most came true years back, but an unusual number have just come true this past week and i have had several about my first visit to Winter Hill, which will be on the 16th.I am hoping that this all means that I will be taking an important personal step this weekend that will effect my path throughout my life.It could just be that I am actually inviting the visitors to present themselves to me for the first time. The attention that I am feeling could just be a result of the amount of time that I am spending analyzing my experiences and thinking about the visitors. I am pretty sure that they can sense this and they will usually abduct me when this happens.My premonitions may be a result of my own excitement about my skywatch. No matter what happens, I have never presented myself to the visitors willingly and I believe that this will be an important personal step.I have decided to try to present myself unconditionally to them, to face down my fear and try to engage them fully. I think that I am facing some kind of personal challenge, just like my recent challenge, when they presented themselves to me in my garden. I hope that this time that i will be able to bear their presence and accept their challenge. I am going to put all of my chips on the table and gamble everything. I am beginning to understand what it is that I am gambling and I understand the real reasons for my fear of them. If I fail their challenge, I am gambling more than a few poker chips, but if I succeed then the rewards are worth it. The reward is a chance for humanities freedom from ignorance, the penalty for failure will be the future of my soul and the loss of my sanity.If I turn up in a field, missing my eyes, cheeks tongue and sex organs then you know that I failed, but also understand that I gambled myself willingly.Whatever happens, the date of this blog will serve as verification that I understood the hazards before the I took this step, but it is also confirmation that I am already resigned to my fate.If you think that I am being over dramatic then you probably have never experienced the fear that surrounds the visitors. I believe that the only way to confront this fear is to resign yourself to whatever fate they have in mind for you and the only way to do this is to gamble everything that you are, willingly and without hesitation.
