I am beginning to feel the visitors attention more and more as the 16th approaches.This has happened in the past, during the lead up to a physical encounter.I will catch glimpses of shadowy movements. I will get the feeling that I am being watched and my attention will flick unguided to a point near to me and I will often see a kind of flitting movement, like a person is just ducking out of view. I have also had this with shapes in the sky. I will glimpse rapid movement above me, but as my eyes track it, it quickly fades into the background. I am left with peripheral glimpses of quick streak like instances of movement. a bit like when you barely catch a glimpse of a shooting star, only bigger and lower.I can also feel them watching my thoughts. This is like a feeling of pressure just next to and behind my right eye. I can feel the presence of another mind riding my own. My dreams have been directed toward the visitors also. I feel as if I am having conversations with them in my sleep. I have a long record of personal premonitions, that I have logged since I was about 17. Most came true years back, but an unusual number have just come true this past week and i have had several about my first visit to Winter Hill, which will be on the 16th.I am hoping that this all means that I will be taking an important personal step this weekend that will effect my path throughout my life.It could just be that I am actually inviting the visitors to present themselves to me for the first time. The attention that I am feeling could just be a result of the amount of time that I am spending analyzing my experiences and thinking about the visitors. I am pretty sure that they can sense this and they will usually abduct me when this happens.My premonitions may be a result of my own excitement about my skywatch. No matter what happens, I have never presented myself to the visitors willingly and I believe that this will be an important personal step.I have decided to try to present myself unconditionally to them, to face down my fear and try to engage them fully. I think that I am facing some kind of personal challenge, just like my recent challenge, when they presented themselves to me in my garden. I hope that this time that i will be able to bear their presence and accept their challenge. I am going to put all of my chips on the table and gamble everything. I am beginning to understand what it is that I am gambling and I understand the real reasons for my fear of them. If I fail their challenge, I am gambling more than a few poker chips, but if I succeed then the rewards are worth it. The reward is a chance for humanities freedom from ignorance, the penalty for failure will be the future of my soul and the loss of my sanity.If I turn up in a field, missing my eyes, cheeks tongue and sex organs then you know that I failed, but also understand that I gambled myself willingly.Whatever happens, the date of this blog will serve as verification that I understood the hazards before the I took this step, but it is also confirmation that I am already resigned to my fate.If you think that I am being over dramatic then you probably have never experienced the fear that surrounds the visitors. I believe that the only way to confront this fear is to resign yourself to whatever fate they have in mind for you and the only way to do this is to gamble everything that you are, willingly and without hesitation.
This is just a quick update concerning my skywatch on the 16th.I have decided that I will only film the beginning and the end of my skywatch.My reasons are to offer the visitors an opportunity to make contact without having to worry about me posting the event on youtube. I believe that the visitors are allowing us to capture evidence of their existence. I think that they are drip feeding us evidence that allows deniability up to a certain future date. Whether or not this date is during the winter of 2012 or not, I have no idea.My personal goals are to change the nature of my contact with the visitors. I believe that a couple of years ago that the visitors have offered an opportunity to allow me to initiate this change, but unfortunately I behaved like a trapped animal.I think that this was during 2006, I am not sure because I was kinda traumatized by the experience and never properly recorded the event. It was the time when I suddenly stopped drawing and painting the visitors. I stopped updating this site for a long time and it was because my encounter with them terrified me. The visitors hadn't done anything to warrant my reaction to them, it was the fact that I had believed that I was ready to make contact with them and they had responded by actually turning up. On the night in question, they manipulated my dreams, so that I would sleep walk to my window. While in a semiconscious state they revealed themselves to me and at that moment I snapped awake and responded in a rather animalistic manner.Since that event, I have realized that it must have taken a huge amount of courage for them to present themselves in that manner. The way that they reacted to my explosion of rage and fear demonstrated to me that they had placed them in a position of vulnerability.I have decided to apologize to them for my reaction to their attempt to make contact with me while I was in control of myself, by putting myself in a position where I am completely vulnerable to them. I will put all of my camera equipment away for one hour, so that the visitors are able to make contact without being filmed.I hope that I do film something interesting while I am filming, but unless they tell me otherwise I will secure my equipment at exactly 9.30, whether I am filming something interesting or not.I am terrified of the visitors and I hope to face these fears on the 16th.
This blog is more to motivate myself than share info, but here it is.Next month there will be a partial Lunar eclipse. I remember the last time there was a Lunar eclipse a lot of people captured UFOs on the footage that they were filming of the moon.There have been a few crop circles that seem to point to the next lunar eclipse, plus there seems to be a major UFO wave in the UK at the moment so I have decided to try something.On the 16th at 9.30pm I am going to go to the highest point in Bolton (Winter Hill near Horwich) and I am going to film the lunar eclipse. Winter Hill also happens to be a location that the visitors have used as a reference point during my abductions. If you look at the picture titled bad times. Winter Hill kinda appears in it twice. I am both standing on it, yet you can see it in the distance. This is because the visitors showed me a huge panarama of my area from Winter hill and without the hill in the picture there isn't much sense of scale, because the area around winter hill is very flat, so I cheated and put it in the picture.There is one photo that I have seen of a spectacular winged UFO taken at Winter Hill from the early eighties, so I am hoping that something happens.I will try to find the picture and post it just above the bad times picture.Bye for now and I hope that I have something cool to report after the 16th.
