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I am beginning to feel the visitors attention more and more as the 16th approaches.
This has happened in the past, during the lead up to a physical encounter.
I will catch glimpses of shadowy movements. I will get the feeling that I am being watched and my attention will flick unguided to a point near to me and I will often see a kind of flitting movement, like a person is just ducking out of view. I have also had this with shapes in the sky. I will glimpse rapid movement above me, but as my eyes track it, it quickly fades into the background. I am left with peripheral glimpses of quick streak like instances of movement. a bit like when you barely catch a glimpse of a shooting star, only bigger and lower.
I can also feel them watching my thoughts. This is like a feeling of pressure just next to and behind my right eye. I can feel the presence of another mind riding my own. My dreams have been directed toward the visitors also. I feel as if I am having conversations with them in my sleep.
I have a long record of personal premonitions, that I have logged since I was about 17. Most came true years back, but an unusual number have just come true this past week and i have had several about my first visit to Winter Hill, which will be on the 16th.
I am hoping that this all means that I will be taking an important personal step this weekend that will effect my path throughout my life.
It could just be that I am actually inviting the visitors to present themselves to me for the first time. The attention that I am feeling could just be a result of the amount of time that I am spending analyzing my experiences and thinking about the visitors. I am pretty sure that they can sense this and they will usually abduct me when this happens.
My premonitions may be a result of my own excitement about my skywatch. No matter what happens, I have never presented myself to the visitors willingly and I believe that this will be an important personal step.
I have decided to try to present myself unconditionally to them, to face down my fear and try to engage them fully. I think that I am facing some kind of personal challenge, just like my recent challenge, when they presented themselves to me in my garden. I hope that this time that i will be able to bear their presence and accept their challenge. I am going to put all of my chips on the table and gamble everything. I am beginning to understand what it is that I am gambling and I understand the real reasons for my fear of them. If I fail their challenge, I am gambling more than a few poker chips, but if I succeed then the rewards are worth it. The reward is a chance for humanities freedom from ignorance, the penalty for failure will be the future of my soul and the loss of my sanity.
If I turn up in a field, missing my eyes, cheeks tongue and sex organs then you know that I failed, but also understand that I gambled myself willingly.
Whatever happens, the date of this blog will serve as verification that I understood the hazards before the I took this step, but it is also confirmation that I am already resigned to my fate.
If you think that I am being over dramatic then you probably have never experienced the fear that surrounds the visitors. I believe that the only way to confront this fear is to resign yourself to whatever fate they have in mind for you and the only way to do this is to gamble everything that you are, willingly and without hesitation.
This has happened in the past, during the lead up to a physical encounter.
I will catch glimpses of shadowy movements. I will get the feeling that I am being watched and my attention will flick unguided to a point near to me and I will often see a kind of flitting movement, like a person is just ducking out of view. I have also had this with shapes in the sky. I will glimpse rapid movement above me, but as my eyes track it, it quickly fades into the background. I am left with peripheral glimpses of quick streak like instances of movement. a bit like when you barely catch a glimpse of a shooting star, only bigger and lower.
I can also feel them watching my thoughts. This is like a feeling of pressure just next to and behind my right eye. I can feel the presence of another mind riding my own. My dreams have been directed toward the visitors also. I feel as if I am having conversations with them in my sleep.
I have a long record of personal premonitions, that I have logged since I was about 17. Most came true years back, but an unusual number have just come true this past week and i have had several about my first visit to Winter Hill, which will be on the 16th.
I am hoping that this all means that I will be taking an important personal step this weekend that will effect my path throughout my life.
It could just be that I am actually inviting the visitors to present themselves to me for the first time. The attention that I am feeling could just be a result of the amount of time that I am spending analyzing my experiences and thinking about the visitors. I am pretty sure that they can sense this and they will usually abduct me when this happens.
My premonitions may be a result of my own excitement about my skywatch. No matter what happens, I have never presented myself to the visitors willingly and I believe that this will be an important personal step.
I have decided to try to present myself unconditionally to them, to face down my fear and try to engage them fully. I think that I am facing some kind of personal challenge, just like my recent challenge, when they presented themselves to me in my garden. I hope that this time that i will be able to bear their presence and accept their challenge. I am going to put all of my chips on the table and gamble everything. I am beginning to understand what it is that I am gambling and I understand the real reasons for my fear of them. If I fail their challenge, I am gambling more than a few poker chips, but if I succeed then the rewards are worth it. The reward is a chance for humanities freedom from ignorance, the penalty for failure will be the future of my soul and the loss of my sanity.
If I turn up in a field, missing my eyes, cheeks tongue and sex organs then you know that I failed, but also understand that I gambled myself willingly.
Whatever happens, the date of this blog will serve as verification that I understood the hazards before the I took this step, but it is also confirmation that I am already resigned to my fate.
If you think that I am being over dramatic then you probably have never experienced the fear that surrounds the visitors. I believe that the only way to confront this fear is to resign yourself to whatever fate they have in mind for you and the only way to do this is to gamble everything that you are, willingly and without hesitation.
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kidflash2008
07:57 PM on September 07, 2008
There is nothing wrong with fear as it makes us human. Fear is good to have as it stops one from making a rash decision. Whatever you decide and however you decide to deal with these visitors (who seem unwelcome like in-laws doing that unexpected "pop in"), I write for everyone here that we hope for the best and will keep you in our prayers and thoughts.